just got back from beijing. didn't really buy anything. i just went there to inhale toxicated air filled with tobacco. urhhh. sick place it was... and the bargain places were so crowded. nothing much to buy. a LOT of shops, hell lot of 'em. but they were all selling stuff the previous shop was selling. garh. shouldn't've went. waste of time...

then i flew back. sleptfor 10 hours straight. woke up with a headache. went for piano. didn't do anything. screw life it's boring. grhhh... i can't go out. i can't go out by myself can i. so i stay at home drawing crap. band's on wednesday thankfully. i'm going out with my juniors unusually. and ck must be skipping band and not going out with me as usual...

i just realised that i'm an attention repulser. the opposite of attention magnet. yeah i kinda shoo people away. it's like i;m not popular or something. whether it's in real life (i've little close friends; the friends i have don't wanna hang with me) or in maple (people DAO me in fms) or anywhere in the world maybe. IMMA ATTENTION REPULSER, OKAY!?

i'm just facing the damn facts...

signing off.

omg. attended some stupid talk this afternoon. MindChamps. how inspiring, right? yeah tell me about it. grrr can't sleep. ah heck. - - dad's here telling me to turn the com off and take care of my health and all.

anyway the mindchamps thing was supposed to be interesting and motivating. i mean, i attended it. i just enjoyed the effort put into the presentation. the guy's english and pronunciation was... omfgwth disgusting. made my hair stand on end... urrh.

and that's all. ate ajisen. chunkiat's coming tomorrow for a while. *sigh* then he's going out with his friend to cut hair... oh YEAH. i wanna dye my hair in streaks of dull red man. lex highlighted her's purple. grrrr im jealous... mum won't let me!! typical her. yeah, sure.

sayonara. (youngchamps. bleaurgh.)

alas school's over. that sickening period...

watching gokusen now. it's so movable and touching... - - why'm i saying this. anyway.

there's some school movie thing tomorrow. really really lame... about some... motivational inspiring movie. and they even have some socialising session after the movie. and you don't even get to wear anything you like. you wear school uniform. oh the fun creativity.

i'm deciding to skip a few days from school. it's gonna be the end anyway... it's just a few days too. so... why not? hope my mum agrees...

haven't received news on whether i'm gonna get retained or not... - - hope i will. so can get to change school to SJI international... they've a mix of genders there. =D kekeke. compared to this school. - - sheesh.

ah well. sayonara mortals...

why can't i get any sleep?! it's like... quarter to five in the morning!! grhhh...

school's back. although exam's over. just screw school, okay? screw it. fuck school.

these days i stay at home doing nothing. supposed to go out with chunkiat but it seems he's avoiding me whenever i ask him where are we going and stuff like that. *sigh* life sooooo sucks... damn.

so annoying. i was supposed to skip today. but then chunkiat called and said 'twas band practice. and so i went. and then in the end he didn't come. wtf la. - - not fair. ah well band was boring.

got back my freakin results today. not gonna talk about it.

basically nothing much happened today. cept for freaking school. which i was supposed to pon. then in the morning mr crawshaw was the reader for the morning prayer, he was uuuuuuuber coolio~!! xDDD he was so exaggerated he made me smirk. a little. lol. cool guy.

then hair check for my class 3e3 and 3e4. damn. got caught. sent to mr subash. he said to cut our hair so that we would be less obvious. kekeke, i'm not gonna cut my fringe... just the sides. beat THAT!! bleh~! and i'm gonna skip on tuesday. i want to. cause school's just so fuckin boring y'know. annoying.

was supposed to stayover at andrew's. i need to watch jap dramas badly. haven't even finished gokusen man. grhh. let alone gokusen TWO. T T ah heck. i'm off to maple cause andrew, lex and griffin's there. so no life right...? lol. yeah typical.

sayonara and goodnight...

blur. O o

school's passing by like a blur. i can't remember what i'd done for the pass few days... exams're just next week. i can't wait... NOT. can't wait till they're over.

sheesh. exams're freaking lame. good thing i've people to study with. chun, sister and hippo. LOL. jaggy rarely tags along. and we're gonna bake, go zoo and do stuff together after that freaking exams! can't wait! ^^

currently finding the mood to study. chunkiat maybe staying over on saturday. to study and all. and maybe we're going out with sister and hippo to taka... art friend! art is my friend.

then study. then chunkiat and i go my house and sleep and wake up and brush teeth then it's stupid slacky sunday.which means: piano class. grade one. playing disney songs. - - wtf.

so that's basically the cycle of my stupid boring life. it'll get much more interesting after the lame exams... i hope. lol. hasta la vista.

omg the exams're drawing near... i'm so desperate for studying. i barely know anything from the chapters... and i hope my mum allows me to go to attend the study groups with chunkiat and yingru and possibly charmaine... cause studying yourself is mega boring. - -

yesterday was okay. first there was flag day. my group consisted of chunkiat, jason and kitfei (surprisingly). shengyi was supposed to come... he changed his mind. not sure why... anyway. we went to my house to play Wii and all. then we went to do our actual begging for donations. all was normal, we returned the tin cans and stuff...

secondly, we went to play badminton! so fun! lol. and my freakin' brother had to tag along. so annoying. T T fack him. grhh... and after that we played pepsi cola and all of the tiring games to sweat us out... too bad didn't play block catching... - -

thirdly, thanks to kitfei, he brought my brother home. jaggy went home too. then chunkiat and i watched a horror movie. nuroi: the curse and sh!t it was scary... scared me half to death. i have never watched a horror film before.

apparently chunkiat was bored. and he wasn't all that scared. - - wtf la. after the show i was really freaked out... really freaked out. and i went kinda insane. especially at home. i didn't want to bathe and i wanted to sleep in my mum's room. haha.

and that's all for yesterday. today's gonna be boring. gonna have piano class at junction 8 as usual then maybe going to amk macdonald's to meet chunkiat and company for studying... if my mum allows. T T sheesh, i don't get much freedom around here don't i? *sigh*

my flute's taken by jeremy lim, cocurrently. not fair, i can't practice it and i miss music... oh well, i guess i'll have to wait till my exams're over or something. at the mean time, i'll borrow chunkiat's miyazawa. thanks chunkiat!